when i grow up, i want to be...

i really do think i am destined for something big. i really don't know how to say it without sounding pretentious, but yes... i will be famous for something. now here is where the problem lies-- i have no fucking clue for what. once upon a time i thought i was going to be famous for singing. a plus sized pop star with a heart of gold. next i thought it was an oscar winning actress-- one of the few who wins an oscar for a comedy. and then there were all those people that said "you should totally be on snl". right right right... but don't forget the favorite-- the broadway dream. most likely to win a tony in my high school yearbook. i will say this... i DO work on broadway... just not the one that everyone would expect. i keep the famous dreams in my back pocket, but everyday they don't seem as feasible.

so then i moved on to business. i want to make the next big show. the next big toy. the next big craze. zsu zsu pets? seriously, someone is rolling in billions for freaking rats that roll around the floor. i could do that. "you have the talent to be someone big in this industry". um... ok. but lately it has been frustrating and i wonder if this is what i'm supposed to be famous for... next!

people seem to like my writing. i think i write incoherently like james frey, mindless jibberish that i think i can only understand. but remember the live journal craze during college? right. so if jenn lancaster can write books upon books of short stories of her life, why can't i? except when i finally said, ok start wrting, i only filled half a page and then i remembered how trecherous it was in college to write. moving on.

so what about entrepreneurship? cupcakes, burgers, and pizza are the rage in nyc... why can't i do the same. thus was born the idea of a bakery (which hasn't been trademarked, so in fear of all the millions of people who read this blog (hahahahahhahahahha) i will not disclose) that has some legs. could i be the next cupcake craze? however, kelly cutrone (my idol) came to work to talk to us about her life and how she became kelly cutrone. i only wish i had a quarter of her wisdom and strength. but she said to not jump ship into being an entrepreneur unless you absolutely positively sure... and have collateral. do i have either? okkkkkkkkkk thanks.

i could go on. plus sized fashion designer (brought upon by my personal experiences where just because you are above a size 10 doesn't mean that you are a country bumpkin and have to dress like one)? glasses designer (have you met me? i'm the four-eyed queen)? cartoon voiceovers? travel agent (what???)? the biggest loser for those who are chub but not super big (sigh...)? annalisa for president? this could go on all day.

so that's a lot to aspire to. maybe i should get cracking? eh, in the meantime i'll play lotto scratch offs... ooh look, i won $25! $25 closer to notoriety.  history, here i come!

-annalisa