COLDPLAY COLDPLAY COLDPLAY

i realize i updated less than 16 hours ago, but in the time that i did so, two events happened...

1. on my way to the subway this morning, i passed a disoriented looking conan o'brien. it was pouring, he was without umbrella, and looked totally disheveled. i stared at him, and went about my business. again, i realize i live in a ridiculous place...

2. OMGOMGOMGOMG coldplay news!!! first of all, they are giving away their single for free starting tomorrow on the website. secondly THEY ARE GIVING AWAY TICKETS FOR A FREE CONCERT IN MADISON SQUARE GARDEN. so if you are my friend, and you love me dearly, you will go onto the coldplay website tomorrow and sign up do whatever you can to get me ticketsss. omg, i would pass out. I MUST GO! third, they announced their new cd is going to be out in june. AHHHHHHHHH SO EFFING EXCITED.

that has been your daily conan o'brien and coldplay news. and now back to work...

-annalisa

if i had a million dollars...

want to know where i would spend all my money if i didn't have to worry about rent/bills/student loans?

anthropologie

these clothes are EXACTLY my style. to a t. i am beyond obsessed. but as you can see from the prices, they are not exactly affordable... like, i could save up to buy one dress when i could probably buy three for that price at banana republic. sigh...

in other news, my weekend was totally totally uneventful. but i needed it because i have had quite a busy past couple of weeks. and it got SO cold out that it was just nice to kind of stay in and relax. i only ordered in once. and that was because i am sick of the diet i currently am on (why i thought frozen meals everyday was a good idea?!?) that i needed REAL food. as much as this diet isn't that glamorous, i do think i have noticed a change in a week. so maybe i'll stick with it... maybe...

so i spent a majority of the day watching movies and creating playlists for my daily walks. i don't know how, but when i play certain cds like coldplay's 'a rush of blood to the head' or keane's 'hopes and fears' or kt tunstall's 'eye of the telescope', i immediately got these chills and started remembering how these songs were such a big part of my life. i listen to them, and remember exactly where i was and what i was doing and when in time it all took place. it's amazing that music can do that to you. and it's amazing how you wish for those moments, as small and insignificant as they were in the past, to be back in your life. and they never can be.

~annalisa

the present is an empty space between the good and bad...

do you know what would make happier than anything in the world at this moment??

to rewind to 2004 and be sitting in a performance of aida. god, how i miss you so...

~annalisa

philadelphia freedom

my visits to philadelphia are always bittersweet for me. i always am incredibly excited to go, see my friends, and have an incredible time. but coming home is difficult. i had a good 3 hours on the train back to nyc to think about how life moves on, and how different mine would be if i did stay in philadelphia. i feel like i have written countless blogs about this, but it is something i think about a lot. and especially now that i am basically restarting my life, it is difficult to go back to philadelphia where i had lots of incredible relationships back to ny where i am just starting to create new ones. and going back to see the shows at sju (as good or bad as they are) make me miss performing more than ever. as much as i don't miss the work that came with it, i do miss being in college. who knew i would ever say that.
regardless of how difficult it is for me to come back, i had a wonderful time full of cupcakes, sams, wawa, the pub, and grilled deliciousness. i also learned that i basically burn bridges with a lot of people. wow, go me. something i can work on for the future? i think yes. but i basically can't change who i am. so that's that.
i don't have anything special in store for this week. i'm hoping the weather stays nice (although it is a bit cold right now) so i can walk home from work. because after the weekend, i am completely disgusted with my health. i need to change that stat. no more cupcakes. bring on the pinkberry.

~annalisa

ps. picture of my haircut per kari's request

see i'm a new soul in this very strange world...

there is nothing fun to write about... this past week has just been so crazy busy. the only day i was home before 7 from work was thursday. plus i was in work today (sunday) from 2-7. ahhhhhh crazy!

oh, and i got a haircut. it was time for another change. the hairstylist cut a little more than i was expecting, but i am growing to like it. now here is to seeing if i can really take care of it. i just straightened it after washing it, and it looks like an afro. blahhh

SUPER busy week again this week. basically i am only working one full day. and friday i am off to philadelphia for a visit. being busy is good good good.

~annalisa

OMG STEPHEN SONDHEIM

tonight was another one of nights where i realize why i moved to ny. i went to the 'ladies who sing sondheim' concert with angela lansbury. i never in my life thought i would see her perform live. or see stephen sondheim (albeit from afar). and although patti lupone pulled out last minute due to illness (tear!) raul esparza stepped in and sang 'being alive'. and i had chills and wept with complete strangers. it's for moments like these that i live...


Someone to hold you too close,
Someone to hurt you too deep,
Someone to sit in your chair,
To ruin your sleep.

Someone to need you too much,
Someone to know you too well,
Someone to pull you up short
And put you through hell.

Someone you have to let in,
Someone whose feelings you spare,
Someone who, like it or not,
Will want you to share
A little, a lot.

Someone to crowd you with love,
Someone to force you to care,
Someone to make you come through,
Who'll always be there,
As frightened as you
Of being alive

Somebody, hold me too close,
Somebody, hurt me too deep,
Somebody, sit in my chair
And ruin my sleep
And make me aware
Of being alive,
Being alive.

Somebody, need me too much,
Somebody, know me too well,
Somebody, pull me up short
And put me through hell
And give me support
For being alive,
Make me alive.
Make me confused,
Mock me with praise,
Let me be used,
Vary my days.
But alone is alone, not alive.

Somebody, crowd me with love,
Somebody, force me to care,
Somebody, make me come through, I'll always be there,
As frightened as you,
To help us survive
Being alive

~annalisa

ps. in this photo, mr sondheim is hugging ms lansbury on the right. the end.

homeward bound

going home this weekend really fucked with my head for a million reasons. if i had three wishes in my life, one would be to combine all of my worlds into one. sigh. we can't have it all. but i can still wish...

~annalisa

spring awakening

i wrote this blog on weds, but for some reason it didnt post, and i didn't notice until sunday
there are moments in life where it feels like the world just makes sense. everything in your life makes sense. every decision you ever doubted make sense.

today was one of those days. it was finally a beautiful day, and i went for a walk in the park. and everything was so beautiful. and for about an hour, i forgot about everything that is going on in my life. i walked and watched people pass by, and thought to myself that i truly belong like the rest of them. i belong in this city, i AM a new yorker. and for the first time, i let go and was really happy.

i need to go for more walks in the park

~annalisa

april showers bring sick annalisas

welcome april. i am finding it so hard to believe i have been here for almost 3 months already. how time is flying!

so i am home sick right now. i am incredibly light headed and nauseous. i was clammy earlier, but thankfully that went away. i was at work and i couldn't even look at the screen anymore, so my boss sent me home. i feel terrible because i will be off on friday, but its best that i am not at work today. i am going to make sure i get better so i can be energized for the rest of the week.

i had my first bug in my apartment on friday. i was half clothed from getting out of the shower and putting my makeup on when it crawled into my bedroom. i screamed and ran to the bathroom to get the spray and screamed again when i flushed it down the toilet. it was the biggest thing EVER. omg, i have chills thinking about it now. and then i screamed a third time when i thought i saw another one, but it was just a shadow of my headphones. wooow paranoia. thankfully my landlord was in my apartment today closing up the chimney where we think all the problems may have started. *shudder*

i think i am just becoming a paranoid person in general. lets see how this progresses...

~annalisa