a desperately needed time out

i think this blog is defunct for awhile. i'm super stressed with work, life, everything... i just need time to... be.

-annalisa

times are rough

times are scary... we just received an email from our cfo saying that the company will be selling off 400 million dollars of shares to basically stay afloat... and everyone knows what comes after that. a wee bit scary... today is my 8 month anniversary at work. time flies. i hope i make it to 9...

i have really fallen off my diet wagon. i was doing SO well. i was down 17 since april. and now i have been fluctuating between 12-15. ugh. my dream is that i can motivate myself to wake up an hour earlier everyday and go to the gym... i laugh every time i say this, because i know i will continue sleeping. ugh... must get motivated......

so i am going home for halloween weekend. and then i will be home for thankgiving. and then christmas. so maybe i was a little exsesive. but it was killing me to not go home in the fall. and it will be birthday celebrations part 2. i am a little bummed it is a weekend when both my parents won't be home (most children would rejoice this fact) but it honestly was the only time i could do it. so... party? i don't know why i decided to spend more money on a plane ticket and halloween costume when i am already low on funds. whatever, i can still pay my rent...

i'm hungry. i think i am going to go find something to eat. happy fall.

-annalisa

ps. please enjoy the picture of my mother feeding the ducks and pigeons of central park... right next to a 'don't feed the wildlife' sign...

sigh

i fell asleep at 10 last night. how am i supposed to find anything interesting to write about when i fall asleep at the same time as 8 year old children?

-annalisa

photo update

because i was too busy to blog, a snippet of what i have been doing since august:
in conclusion, i eat entirely too many bad things...

-annalisa

ok

i'm not dead.

happy labor day.

-annalisa

a week in review

a few things that have occurred as of recently:

-i ate a personal pizza and 6 breadsticks from dominos this evening. and now i feel like death. ughhh

-certain... job things have happened to me in the past 48 hours. i am so beyond confused with what to do. i am just taking it one step at a time. but the first step is coming really soon...

-one of my only weekends off, and i am making it busy anyway. at least i didn't leave my apartment today...

-did i mention the nausea from the breadsticks?????? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

-summer is almost over. and this makes me so incredibly sad. only three more weekends left after this one, and i go back to 5 day work weeks. doesn't that break your heart?

-i love ugly dolls (can't you tell?)

-i was down 15 pounds as of yesterday. i think that changed with the breadsticks. ughhhhhh

in conclusion, i never eating again.

okay, so that is a lie. i am not eating tomorrow.


okay, so that isn't happening either. i will eat better this weekend? yeh, i don't forsee that happening either. ughhhhhhh. goodbye 15 pound weight loss...

-annalisa

time after time

one of my closest friends from high school is moving to north carolina this week, leaving only one of my friends at home (well technically 2, but one commutes three hours to work a day, so she basically lives there). so this is it. this is the part when you realize everyone really is growing up. it is absolutely amazing to see how we all have scattered across the country. we have representation in canada, buffalo, rochester, philadelphia, new york, charolette, and los angeles. really really growing up. the minute someone gets married or pops a child, i may have a nervous breakdown. because then we are truly grown. sigh...
what i am thankful for, as horrible as it seemed at the time, is that we had one last summer together last year. i was incredibly stressed with finishing school, having no job, and numerous other things that i don't even want to think about anymore. but we had each other, all of us in the same place one last time. wow wow wow. it will never be the same.

~annalisa